Fucking 3.2

I have idea how to talk about on my exams

I was so doubt with my answers and hell yeah I felt so unsecured

I have never have such low self esteem on my performances

but god hell this time I have prepared a dramatic drop of my CGPA

Last minutes study???

ABSOLUTELY !!!

I study the day before exam

I know I swear for so fucking many times that I will study

STUDY FOR MY FUTURE but what the hell I'm still sitting infront on my comp

felt so much of guilty and WTH tomorrow paper I know I'm going to screw up

Seriously, probably this will be the last post until I'm finish my STPM or trial

I'm going to quit blogger for a few months

and Facebook, WEIBO too, perhaps... EVERYTHING !!!!!!

Unless I get the fucking 3.2 CGPA for my trial

or not my mom are going to cut down my streamyx, phones

EVERYTHING CAN ACCESS TO INTERNET !!!

and hell yeah

NO MORE HANG OUTS

NO MORE SHOPPING

NO MORE ENTERTAINMENT

NO MORE YUM CHA

NO MORE MOVIES

NO MORE BIRTHDAY PARTY

NO MORE EVERYTHING !!!!!!

especially, Big Bang

I don't wish to say it brings bad influence to me

but the truth is I can't denied it... it does !!!

I have 2.5 month left for trial

5 month for real STPM

I know this will be a tough way

3.2 is merely impossible for me, at lease for now

but as long as I try, seriously I think it shouldn't be any problem

I'm aiming high this time, I'm smart girl

but I just too freaking lazy to be smart !!!

and be smart on places that I shouldn't be smart

I duwan to feel regret, I'm 19 now

I'm too old to regret now !!!!!!

There is no turning back since I stepped into form 6

Waste time or waste money or get into good university

That was only 3 choices that lead you to different types of lives

just depends on my determination and self motivation

Goodbye reader, and pray for me :D

I WILL BE BACK !!!!!!